long weekend...here i come!

blog last Oct 31, '07 6:49 AM

we're gonna have our long weekend after today. we don't have work from tomorrow until sunday. that's 4 days. woah! at least we could have a really good rest from all the stress at work. mahal is very exhausted, i can see that.

i'm looking forward to have our christmas vacation in singapore. we're gonna visit mahal's sister, dang. we'll have a really good time with nanay, jules and hopefully belinda could come with us too. i just wish i could also bring tadjong, nina, papa, ate kat and kuya dens. if this will push thru, this is going to be my first out of the country experience with mahal. really can't wait. you guys wanna come? :)

back again.

i'm back! finally...i already made a blog again after a million years. just kiddin. ignore me, i'm just exaggerating. anyway, story to tell? actually, a lot of things happened. last february 2007, i was able to form an all butch band called 3rdstring. but unfortunately, after 7 months, our lead guitarist called it off. now our band is looking for her replacement. so if you might know a butch who can be our lead guitarist for our band, you may contact me by replying to this entry.hope to hear from ya'll. i really hope you'll be able to help me pull up the 3rdstring band. thanks guyz!

blessed destiny.

blog last Mar 27, '06 8:27 PM

I remember the time when i was still convincing myself that i am meant to be alone and free. I told myself, i am already tired of the rollercoaster ride of love. I promised myself that i'm not gonna move my ass to look for someone new. The last one wasn't bad but it wasn't meant to last. But funny thing is, i think fate has got a really mad sense of humor. It lead me towards somebody who's already convinced that she's got to be alone and free also. and now we are together, enjoying each other, and we're very happy.

in love.

blog last Mar 27, '06 8:25 PM

yeba! finally, i got the chance to visit back my dear xanga. well, my story to tell is really interesting. just look at my subject line there. so, to start off - i wanna say 'i am inlove', ofcourse, i am inlove with my girlfriend. my girlfriend who is also my best friend. and i can say that she's the best girlfriend. i am just so happy to have her in my life, i bet you guys have no idea, huh? and i am really so proud of her that i want to shout to the whole wide universe that i got her and how much i love her. there's just no other way to do it but just to let her feel it instead. i know nobody is perfect, but with her, everything just feels so good. i enjoy doing things with her. i love to eat with her, i love to talk to her, i love to watch movies with her, i love to sleep with her, and most of all, i love to laugh with her. i just really love her company. you know what? she's all i got right now. and i know that she'll be all that i have for lifetime...forever. now tell me, do you have any idea now how much i love this girl? i bet you do.

***we've only been 3 months together but it already feels like forever.***

the POWer idol.

blog last Sep 25, '08 6:43 AM

she's a really good friend of mine. well, thanks to her for the friendship granted. the first time i met her, she was very friendly and accomodating. she never made me feel that i am just an ordinary person and that she is famous. like i always say, she is very humble and down to earth. her music inspires me so much. we got a lot in common. in fact, we both love music and we share the same passion, singing. i get to know her better and now i can say that she is really a good and kind hearted person so i am very lucky to have her as one of my close friends. truly an idol and a good friend. she deserves to be called an idol, the POWer idol.

change.

blog last Sep 25, '08 6:20 AM

i realized that people really change. even if you get to have the closest friend in your life, even your best friend, they may change. as the saying goes: nothing is constant but change. i just feel sad to know that fact. because its sad to lose a person so close to your heart..just because of some stupid mistake that is really unintentional. you may say sorry but then its still all up to the person you're saying sorry for, if he/she will forgive you. i just cant imagine how they can bear to give you up even if you're sincere in saying sorry and i cant accept how they can just throw away the years of friendship you've shared together. well that's life. just like what a friend told me: she doesn't deserve to be called your best friend if she is that narrow-minded. its ok. i already accepted the reality. no more point in turning back. you can't even bring back how things were. then be it. at least i've done my part. no regrets on my end. thank you for everything and good luck to you.

my extraordinary friend.

blog last Sep 9, '08 8:27 AM

why am i here? well, i just wanna talk about my bro airra. she's my twin bro. we call each other 'kambal' eversince. i just miss her. she's actually based now in U.S. i really miss her a lot but i am happy that i get to talk to her on ym once in a while. we also do skype video calling sometimes (just as long as my internet at home isn't busted, crap). airra is really one of my treasured friends because even if we're miles apart, we know that we're always there for each other in many ways, all the time. i've never had a real best friend. we may not be the best friends that you may call but i feel blessed to have such a great friend like her. i am happy for her, having a happy and peaceful life just like me. hehe. and i wish her all the luck, success and happiness in life and in love...and i hope that one day, someday; we will be together once again and have bonding just like before and that one day, someday; i will be able to hangout again with my extraordinary friend.

My Life.

blog last Sep 6, '08 3:02 AM

I've always enjoyed my childhood. Being a kid means having no problems to worry at all. Being a kid means thinking of nothing but school and play. I remember when i was in primary school, my day would always go like this: i'd go to school and as soon as i head back home, i'd do my homework, have merienda and then play with other kids from our neighborhood and enjoy the rest of the day. i do not worry about financial matters and other things that i hear my folks worrying and arguing about. but days, months and years passed by so fast that i didn't even realize that my fun childhood was over. I am now 27. Have been working my ass off since i was 21 and until now, i haven't had much (if you get what i mean by that...) During childhood, i love everything...i love food, i love to play, i love to sing and dance, i love watching TV, i love my parents, i love my friends and i just love every little thing that was provided for me. i dont know anything but to love and to just enjoy what i have...but now, i have understood what love really means. It only means sacrifice. If you have been in a lotta difficult situations when it comes to loving, then you would know what i mean. Being the kid that i've always been, i am somehow happy with my life. But in between those happiness is confusion. I have always been asking why i don't know where i really belong. I always felt left out by my friends and even by my own family. I always felt different and i always felt alone. The big question here is why? And i can't even answer my own question. But despite all of those not so good experiences that happened to my life all throughout, i believe that somehow, God Loves ME! Why? Because he provided me with a very good soul whom i can call my own. Someone who can stand up for me, someone who will believe in me and someone who brings out the best in me. A person who i can call my home...It is my Agnes. If there is any consolation i get from all the shit i had...that is having my baby in my life. Nothing compares to the unconditional love she has for me. She has always been my angel...

surprise!

blog last Jan 15, '08 6:33 AM

ang sweet ng mga ka-team ko sa office. they surprised me today. dami food. kfc chicken bucket w/ macaroni side salad and drinks. 1 biggest size pizza from yellow cab. isang bilaong pancit malabon at red ribbon cake. may happy birthday deejei pa sa cake, ang happy ko naman. sa thursday pa ang birthday ko. i appreciate their effort talaga. love ko talaga ang churn team. everybody was there. Ms Jhem, Baloy, Buddy Virna, Bossing Vener, Kuya Chris, Shelley, Sir Jason, Allie, Irish our new members Tin, Cedric and Mags. former teammates Louie and Bebang was there too. Love you all guys!

the merriest christmas

blog last Dec 28, '07 7:21 AM

Dec 24, 2007 at 5:00 PM we already arranged the gifts on a paper bag accordingly, one paper bag is a set of gifts for my family in San Juan and the other paper bag is a set of gifts for mahals family in Visayas Ave. Around 5PM we already took a bath and fixed ourselves to go to mass with my family. This is actually our 1st mass together (can you imagine that?) and our first christmas together (because we spent our last xmas separately with our own families). We got into Edsa Shrine at around 7PM 'cause Ate Kat told me to that our call time is 7:30 PM. We were 30 minutes early. So we just waited for them and had some ciggy. Finally, Papa, Ate Kat, Kuya Dennis, Tadjong arrived. They brought Ate Nitz and Aunty Nats along. We heard mass and went straight to San Juan and had a little dinner. I so damn missed Jabays menu. We had mechado and spaghetti (courtesy of Ate Kat, of course its from Jollibee) and had ref cake which Tadjong made. After that we gave gifts to each other. I was so touched that Ate Kat gave my mahal a gift. It's a blue bag (both their fave color). We then said bye bye to them 'cause we're off to her family in Visayas Ave to spend our Noche Buena with. Nanay has been texting us and asking where are we. When we got there, we greeted Ate Len and Bel a very Merry Christmas and also Nanay of course. We had a very fine Noche Buena of course courtesy of Nanay Fermina, sarap sya magluto talaga =). Then we gave gifts. We took pictures of Big Baby Jules while he's opening his tons of gifts under the christmas tree. He is really so cute and adorable and he is special. I gave Ate Len a Jollibee Planner (of course courtesy of Ate Kat again hehehe) and she liked it very much. We gave our gift for Bel and Nanay too. I was surprised to receive a gift from Nanay. She gave a red shirt which fits me good. Wow! I find that really sweet and i was so touched. She's really the best Mother-in-law in the world and the best i ever had. We spent the night with them and half of our Christmas Day too. Happy. I could say that it was the merriest christmas ever. =)

3 days to go!

blog last Dec 22, '07 4:20 AM

3 more days to go and it's christmas already. i actually can't wait for that because it's going to be our 2nd christmas together but will be the very 1st christmas that i won't be spending with my family. but it's alright. i know they will understand. we will be joining them on new years eve anyways. it will also be our 1st christmas in our new home. we moved in to another place by the way last september 8. it's a really better and bigger place. more space for us to cuddle hehe. i already have my music room by the way, which is intended for my band (3rdstringband - hope you guys like it). anyway, i don't think i'm makin sense here, actually, i'm just a bit bored so i decided to blog on. nothing more to say for now. see you on my next entry, if i wont be lazy to make another one. hihi. ciao. happy holidays everyone!

injured again :c

blog dated: Nov 28, '07 7:30 AM

woah! i hate it when it happens. i sprained my ankle again last Nov 7. it was really red and swollen. it was painful. i called in sick from work for almost 3 weeks. now, i still can't walk normally, the swelling subsided but it is still a lil achy and a bit violet but i already got back to work last monday. i have no choice. i cannot be absent anymore because i already finished my sick leave allocation and i won't be getting any pay anymore if i still take a leave. i really feel bad about this because it happened twice already. actually, this happened to me like a lotta times already back in college. i am really prone to this kind of accident. but the last one and this one was the worst of 'em all...and i really hate it. i feel bad that i can't move. i can't do household chores because i need to just sit down and rest. i hate it that i can't take care of my baby. i feel bad that my family seem to not worry about me when Agnes told them about my condition. i feel that i am not important. but when i look at Agnes, i feel very lucky despite my sentiments to my family. i feel lucky for having her as my wife, my partner, my baby. she's very patient and in fact, very good in taking care of me. she looks after me all the time. even if she's tired already, she's always there for me...to keep me company, to feed me, to cheer me up...and to love me...she's always there...and i wouldn't know what to do if she'll be gone. i don't want that to happen. i owe her a lot. so i swear to myself that once i get to be well, i will give back all the things that she did for me. i will take care of her. i will look after her. i will protect her. i will be her knight in shining armour...and i will love her. she's my life.

thank you mahal ko for everything. i love you with all of me.

About Her...

Question 1:
How much does she tell you she loves you?
she whispers it to my ear, she hugs and kisses me a lot, she takes care of me, she buys me food, she calls and text me when we're not together, she holds my hand, and she just tells me every chance she gets

Question 2:
When she is around you and her friends what does she do?
just the same when we're alone, just a lil reserved

Question 3:
How much of the future have you talked about?
a lot. we're plannin to build a happy family.

Question 4:
When you talk what do you talk about?
anything under the sun. usually our kalokohan. we're both funny kase. i make her laugh and she makes me laugh too. but we never miss out on cuddling and talking about us. Ü

Question 5:
Do you love her?
exactly, precisely, absolutely! an awful awful lot!

Question 6:
When you are together what do you do?
we do enjoy doing a lot of things together. but usually, we eat.. we laugh.. when we're in our room, we just cuddle, say i love you and kiss for an hour or two, and we watch tv. and we laugh. and i stare at her lovingly. and she smiles at me, and we laugh.

Question 7:
Has she asked you to marry her yet?
Ü..haha!

Question 8:
Do you see yourself with her for the rest of your lives?
actually, yes! and i'm not just saying this because i love her but because i really feel so, that's she's the one for me. that she's the one i want to spend my lifetime with.

Question 9:
How long have you been with her?
almost 2 months, would you believe?

Question 10:
Do you talk about past relationships?
yeah, we're both cool with it...

Question 11:
Do you trust each other?
we do so much..trust me! Ü

Question 12:
Do you think she lies to you?
oh no. i don't think so. i tell you, i trust her a lot.

Question 13:
Do you know about her relationship/sexual history?
yeah, open naman kami eh.

Question 14:
When the two of you kiss, you...
i hold her close to me and close my eyes and i feel her Ü

Question 15:
Does she let you cry on her?
yeah, but she sure doesn't wanna make or see me cry.

Question 16:
Last one-- do you think she'd die for you?
just ask her instead...Ü

Destiny.

I never believe in fate. I never believe in fairy tales. And i never believe in magic - until she came. My destiny. I believe so, that we are destined to be together - forever. We were friends for 2 years. But we never realized that we will end up together. Our thing came unexpectedly. One magical night of December 10, 2005 when we both felt the need to spill out what we really feel for each other. Funny thing was, we were both hiding it from each other and from everybody. We both suppressed the feeling and kept it all inside us. But everything went so smooth and it is still, in fact, getting all smooth and almost perfect. I just love her to death and i could never bear to lose her. She is my life now. My reason for breathing. My everything. It just feels so good to have someone like her in my life. And i'm truly proud of her. I never see myself having this deep kind of feeling for a girl. But now, with her, i just feel so inlove and in heaven. Words actually aren't enough to describe how i feel for her. I even think that there are no words to describe this feeling and what we have for each other. It is not just love. It is more than love. Even better than just love. Really deep. I just wanna make her happy, always. I love her sweetness. She gives me so much happiness. She is my AGNES. and i love her really.

U.B.E.

October 10, 2005 - was such a tiring day for me (as always) especially that it is a Monday and it is really indeed so toxic at work. I left the office around 8pm. While i was on the way home, Voila! My Kuya texted me asking where am i. I replied and told him that i was on my way home and i asked why. He asked me to have dinner with him in Tolda Grill (me and my best bud Tin's hangout in Shaw Blvd). I dropped off at Kalentong and rented the internet for half an hour just to be able to talk to Kuya on YM since he is still in the office and is not replying to my text anymore. He then asked me to go directly home instead and get some rest, since he couldn't leave the office yet. I felt sad. Because i miss My Kuya so much - in every sense of the word. So i told him that i'd just finish the couple of mins left on my 30 mins slot on the internet hub, then i'd go home right after. He said ok. But after just a coupla mins, he changed his mind again and asked me to go to Tolda Grill so we could have dinner. Yipee! I then rushed off and meet him up in the said place. I got there first and waited for him. When he got there, i hugged him so tight. My Kuya is still the same. He still looks so gwapo (just like me...) hehehe. Anyway, we had Sisig A La Tolda and Kare Kare for dinner. Plus 6 bottles of San Mig Light. I was shocked coz i thought we will just have dinner. But anyhow, i find it cool coz atleast we could have our Ultimate Bonding Experience again after a long time. So there, after eating and while drinking, we were talking. We talked about a lot of things. We talked about our lives. We talked about our plan to go out of the country together to work and earn more money. He even suggested Canada and ofcourse i said Yes! Because i really wanna go there and that's where my Mommy Ninang resides. Anyhow, the rest of what we talked about will be kept with me. The rest is history. All i can say is that i really had fun and had a wonderful time with My Kuya and that i couldn't forget this one moment in our lives. Can't wait for another one, Kuya! Soon! I'll always be your 'kasmot' / 'kuling' and I Love You!

Dilemma.

i miss my blogsite. i hate it that i have no time for bloggin since im seriously busy with work. i feel really stressed. im scared that i suddenly might be rushed to the hospital due to over fatigue. i wish not. i have the feeling that im already bein a workaholic now. and i guess it aint good. i even feel sometimes that i might just collapse. not good at all. well, cant help it to just work and work and work coz i wanna keep myself really busy. i dont wanna be idle. i hate it. i just get to feel sad and think about a lot of things during idle times. a lot of things have been happenin lately. its not good to always talk about problems in here. i wish someday id be writing happy memories in my turf. my friends always ask me - "are you ok?" and i just tell them "what do you think? obviously im not ok!". what a silly question. i feel so down. i feel so low. i have a lot of issues on myself right now. it includes the usual - my family probs, my work and some other. im so tired. my minds all messed up. my heart is so overused. i just dont understand why some people cannot be true to themselves. they always pretend and hide their real self. some people lie and deny just to save their faces and just to wash their own hands. too bad. they may not know its no good at all or maybe they are just bein insensitive and dont care about other peoples feelings. they always keep the 'i-dont-care-about-you' attitude. i really need a break. i need to get away. to sort things out and clear my mind. i need time for myself. just me, myself and i - for me to be able to find myself again. to realize who i really am and where i really belong. this has always been my dilemma. in the 24 years of my life, i always feel so outcast. i dont want to think that people loves to just use me. my friends always say that i am so kind, so good; that people take advantage of me. that is my weakness and i hate it. i am not weird, just eccentric. ill get away now ok? im out! poof!

My Star.

August 31, 2005 - Wednesday, was just an ordinary day. I went to work so early and did my stuffs. Whole day of freakin non stop workin. I dont feel really well and in fact, i was feelin lazy and even feelin lazy to tap my fingers on the keyboard but still i worked my ass out and tried to finish at least 45 accounts for my day productivity. After that, i was tired, hungry, and all - then my boss suddenly announced that he'll be treating the whole team for a buffet on dinner time and we'll be having our team bonding. Everybody was happy to hear that. At exactly 7:00 p.m., everybody rushed off to Shang-rila in Bon Appetit restaurant where the little get together will be held. I was with my best office bud Tin, and the two ladies Joey and Diane. We were supposed to take a cab goin to the said place but there was none, so we decided to take the legendary tricycle instead. It was us who first arrived in the place. I asked the waiter to show us the table reserved for our team so he headed us to the main attraction table. I sat and just looked around. I was drummin my fingers on the table and suddenly, Joey whispered to me 'di ba yan yung sa starstruck?' and I followed where Joey was lookin and poof! unexpectedly - I saw the most beautiful gurl i've ever seen - my biggest crush LJ Reyes! OhMiGosh! I didnt know how i felt at that time. All i can remember was, my hands and knees were shakin and i cant breath. My eyes were stucked on to her. I didnt manage to eat well coz i just enjoyed starin at her. She's got the sweetest smile ive ever seen in a celebrity. And she's got the cutest dimples, i swear! I was so happy i've got the chance to see her personally even if I didnt get to talk to her. But starin at her from an 8 step distance is really a dream come true. She is very pretty and even beautiful. She is a star and is indeed my star. And i was not just starstrucked but i guess i was lovestrucked. Only if she's not a million miles away from me.

The Bond.

After exactly 15 days, i was able to blog again. Wow. I missed doing this. I've always been wanting to blog but i just have no time. Too bad. Everyday, i got a lot of things in my mind to share but i just dont have the freakin chance to log-on. Poor me.
It was quite a fun day at work today since it was declared a 'jeans day'. And this is very rare. That's why when our internal emails received a message from the bosses declaring that it's a friday jeans day again, we all jump for joy. Kool aye?

Anyway, i just remember and just wanted to share this. Last Saturday, July 9 - I went to Owane's place and spent time with her. For the benefit of those who doesn't know, Owane is my twin bro. We're twin brothers by heart and soul. She's also like me (if you get what i mean by that...) I visited her in her condo unit and had some fun time and bonding. I brought a coupla bottles of beer and some chips. After eating the great dinner she prepared for me (with the yummiest rice i have ever tried my whole life - love you kambal! ), we then had a lil piss-up while sharing stories and giving each other some updates on what's happenin with our lives right now. We had a great time while laughin our hearts out. I slept over since we finished by 2am of Sunday already. Then on Sunday, we ate breakfast together and then watched TV. After that, she showed me her photo collection. Wonderful. I left her around 9pm on that same day and finally got home by 10pm.

Message for my 'kambal': "bro i missed you more than ever. and i thank you for the great night we had. hope we could do that more often. love u bro!"