My Life.

blog last Sep 6, '08 3:02 AM

I've always enjoyed my childhood. Being a kid means having no problems to worry at all. Being a kid means thinking of nothing but school and play. I remember when i was in primary school, my day would always go like this: i'd go to school and as soon as i head back home, i'd do my homework, have merienda and then play with other kids from our neighborhood and enjoy the rest of the day. i do not worry about financial matters and other things that i hear my folks worrying and arguing about. but days, months and years passed by so fast that i didn't even realize that my fun childhood was over. I am now 27. Have been working my ass off since i was 21 and until now, i haven't had much (if you get what i mean by that...) During childhood, i love everything...i love food, i love to play, i love to sing and dance, i love watching TV, i love my parents, i love my friends and i just love every little thing that was provided for me. i dont know anything but to love and to just enjoy what i have...but now, i have understood what love really means. It only means sacrifice. If you have been in a lotta difficult situations when it comes to loving, then you would know what i mean. Being the kid that i've always been, i am somehow happy with my life. But in between those happiness is confusion. I have always been asking why i don't know where i really belong. I always felt left out by my friends and even by my own family. I always felt different and i always felt alone. The big question here is why? And i can't even answer my own question. But despite all of those not so good experiences that happened to my life all throughout, i believe that somehow, God Loves ME! Why? Because he provided me with a very good soul whom i can call my own. Someone who can stand up for me, someone who will believe in me and someone who brings out the best in me. A person who i can call my home...It is my Agnes. If there is any consolation i get from all the shit i had...that is having my baby in my life. Nothing compares to the unconditional love she has for me. She has always been my angel...